no rubbish
30 April 2007
4/30/2007 02:04:00 PM
REAL ENTRIES PEOPLE!since i wrote every entry an emotional n freak ones
gonna write it in e proper way.....
TODAY!
done my mother tongue exam. HARD!a little bit! . paper 1 is e most horrifying ones.....asked people around[DURING ASSEMBLY!DO NOT CHEAT!] what is e format of letter writing. but at last i have done dialog, such a waste of energy......there is more exams waiting for us.....ARGHHH!!!!![NOT ANGRY BUT FRUSTRATING!] hope that there is someone to teach me maths.....suck at it!!!! MY DAYS OF STUDYING ARE GOING CRAZY!!!!! my cousin's family at home....staying for a couple of days......NOT GOOD WITH KIDS!!!!!
MY DAYS OF HAPPINESS HAS CHANGE! WHY? REASONS:
1)BAD RELATIONSHIP WITH MY NEW FRIEND[DANGER DAN]
P.S SORRY FOR THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSE TO U!BAD MONTH!
2)STRESS CAUSED FROM THE EXAMS
3)NO PRIVACY!!!!!!! :[[
4)RELATIONSHIP WITH AFIQ BECOMES BAD!!!!!
P.S ITS BECOMING WORSE.LEADS TO?
5)EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS
P.S NEEDS TO SEE A THERAPIST
END OF MY UNHAPPINESS!!!!!!!
VACANCY: TUITION ME FOR MATHS!!!!!!!!
Labels: I AM NOT YOUNG ENOUGH TO KNOW EVERYTHING
28 April 2007
4/28/2007 08:18:00 PM
THIS IS JUST NOT ENOUGHi had lots of fun time together wif DEWI N ANDREA N HUI BIN sadly, hui bin have to went out with somebody else so she leaves early BOO...BOO...BOO...BOO still we had lots of fun time DEWI IS SO MINAH!!!!!!!SHE TOTALLY IS!!!!!OMG!!!!! ARGH...SHOCKING!!!! went to VIVO CITY!!!!!!!!! STILL FELT LIKE SOMTHIN IS MISSING IN MY HEART sad....but do not want my feelings to overcome me..... we saw lots of DAMN CUTE MATS too..... WOAH....WOAH...WOAH....WOAH
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CHILLS
27 April 2007
4/27/2007 05:25:00 PM
I THOUGHT U WERE A DECENT GUY BUT U ARE JUZ ANOTHER ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!FUCKER......INSENSITIVE......JERK...
WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS & MEN ARE FROM HELL
today is my first exam....
WHEE....WHEE....WHEE
today is english exam
DAMN DIFFICULT
but juz wish i pass wif flying colors
MESSAGE TO THE FUCKER:
I KNOW UR GURL IS A NO. PRIORITY BUT AREN'T UR FRENS IMPORTANT TOO!!!!!!!!!!
went to vivo wif dewi n hui bin.....
had lots of FUN TIME!!!!!!!!!
makes me release my stress rather than slitting myself.....
OOOOOOOOO:
eat TOPS....totally delicious....!!!!!!!!!
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID
CONTINUE
26 April 2007
4/26/2007 03:02:00 PM
i don know if u miss me right now
wanted to forget you but tell me how
thinking about you,was like a habit to me
somehow i know that you are avoiding me
knowing my dirty little secret
that's not what i wanted
we talked for hours late at night
how could you not remember that it was yesterday
we talked to each other
sadly,he is such a MOTHER FUCKER
he was always with me to put my sorrows away
now he just makes it come back
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID
24 April 2007
4/24/2007 03:11:00 PM
written a poem.....so this is my 1st stanza[paragraph]there is a contuniation but gonna type it another time.....
its a mistake
loving you was a mistake
i hate you now
cause you have made a foul
to kept me waiting at MACS
that has food that contain fats
got a dissappointed message
"i'm sorry but my gurl wants to meet me"
i know it was wrong to like this guy
although he is not quite cute nor handsome to say
but he makes my heart beats everyday
wonder he know what was inside me
don want to think about it cause its makin me crazy
argh.....feeling so stress oh how its gonna be
my blood flow
its just a dissappointment if the answer is no
a sense of sadness conquers my heart
lies are gonna be over as my heart stop
CONTINUE..........
Labels: PATRIOTISM IS THE VIRTUE OF THE VICIOUS
e world is turning upside down
20 April 2007
4/20/2007 09:07:00 PM
BORED
bored
BORED
bored
BORED
juz got a shocking news
e world is on its way to turn upside down
can't believe the person tat u are starting to know is a ......
OMG!
its for me to know
for u to find out
MUA...HA....HA...HA
goin crazy with e evil laughing
:)
i open my heart to u
i don myself to
but what could i do
when we are meant to be
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID
heart in pain
17 April 2007
4/17/2007 05:14:00 PM
y do i even bother thinking bout us....its a pain in the ass
no matter what you do
don forget me
for what you do
is what i love
although sometimes you get on my nerves
never forget me cause people say we are like lovers
it makes me think
will we be one?
cause you are like a fink
which make me hate myself
you have the love of your life
when me and my hateful life
i may not be pretty
but i also don't need your pity
when will i ever see
that you are not the one for me
Labels: I AM NOT YOUNG ENOUGH TO KNOW EVERYTHING
poem is my game
13 April 2007
4/13/2007 08:54:00 PM
pain teach me to be strongcause it is not wrong
to be in town
doing suicide when i'm down
it just won't go away
i feel like an idiot
for what i do
its not the best for me too
tears roll down my cheek
his hand swept it away
whispers to me,"i will never leave u now"
trying to make me stop
hug me n says,"i'm gonna make it end and love you till the end for you are always my wannabe"
Labels: PATRIOTISM IS THE VIRTUE OF THE VICIOUS
I'M STILL A VIRGIN
12 April 2007
4/12/2007 05:52:00 PM
juz got back from skool.....
ate a island creamery.....
YUMYUMYUM........
crowded of ACS guys n other skools......
saw some hot guys.....
muah...ha...ha...ha
still waiting 4 my sis....
GO SHOPPING.....
its her salary day today.......
YAY!
although not a fan of shopping.....but clothes n accessories rocks my world....
once a fashion lover,always be fashion lover
i'm totally bored like death at home....
something interesting happen yeaterday......
the luck is with me cause wat was guessed in my class...was true
onli tat i was not raped.....
someone special gave me a surprised....
finally went to sentosa with him n frens last night....
he is always busy wif his studies....
so i didn't talk to him 4 couple of days.....he finally missed me
hahahaha......i'm a total suicide
last night was e greatest......do somethin mysterious together....
I'M STILL A VIRGIN
have lots of fun together too......
MUZ DO SOMETHIN CRAZY 4 AWHILE......
END OF MY SADNESS.....
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID
he is not a lover nor an admirer but a fren
11 April 2007
4/11/2007 09:37:00 PM
juz browsing through my fren's blog....read some of his entries
he seems to avoid me
he doesn't seems to notice tat e friendship between us is very valuable
i felt so drifted away
cause he is e one who makes me happie everyday n looking forward to each day
although we never met
but it really makes me realise he is the closest guy i've known
shares my problems with him
help me bring my confidence back to life
mayb i'm juz a gurl tat is.....[i dunno]
it makes me felt disappointed.....
mayb we are juz not supposed to be friends......
FEELIN SO STRESS RITE NOW......argh.....
ONE PROBLEMS LEADS TO ANOTHER.......
Y DO I EVEN BOTHER KNOWING HIM MORE......TALK TO HIM
FEEL SO STUPID......
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID
quotes
08 April 2007
4/08/2007 01:47:00 PM
discovered some interesting quotes....from famous people..."Genius is born--not paid"
Oscar Wilde
"Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months"
Oscar Wilde
"Its not true that life is one damn thing after another,its one damn thing over and over"
Edna St. Vincent Millay
the quotes are unique isn't it......
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID
pissed
07 April 2007
4/07/2007 04:18:00 PM
i'm very pissed right now felt like killng tis guy
can't take anymore of e anger felt like wanting to explode one day i thought he was a decent guy but
today i finally who he is when i read his blog
i can't believe of trusting him hope tat he will read my blog n
he will someday understand my feelings
felt like a rubbish bin
was thrown away when it is full of lies inside it
Labels: PATRIOTISM IS THE VIRTUE OF THE VICIOUS
uncontrollabe lonliness
4/07/2007 12:07:00 AM
walking at Orchard with my friends.....
looking people around us.....
making crazy stuffs......
when in my head
thinking bout how does life works....
wonder everything around us.....
looking at the amazing views in Singapore......
felt lucky to be alive....
although everything tat i wanted doesn't go everything i planned.....
in my heart
feeling lonely than others.....
sadness inside my heart has overcome me.....
to be feared of who i am......
not being myself.....
change who i was....
truth of who i was then
not a enthusiastic person
not pretty
not fashionable
lonely
left out
sad
dreams don come true
no more hopes 4 myself being a better person
everything i was now....its not what i wanted
have to do it 4 e sake of my friends so that they would not be sad
wish sometimes tat i would not exist
its a burden...to c who i love is being taken away from my heart
sorrow is a part of my life
no happiness in my fake life
Labels: I AM NOT YOUNG ENOUGH TO KNOW EVERYTHING
nothing much to do
06 April 2007
4/06/2007 09:35:00 AM
i'm bored to death rite now....in skool....
doin nothing.....
ARGH....but still can take pics in my class...
hehehehehe....muah...ha...ha...ha
i'm suppose to do my project.....
but FUCKING LAZY.....
muah...muah....muah....
i know i'm lame k.....
GUMgum
never give up on wad u do....
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID
naughtiness inside me
4/06/2007 09:33:00 AM
i juz skip my SYF dance lesson......
i'm very naughty rite?
hehehehe.......
alwayz being mean to e teachers.......
:X
i'm in the skool rite now......
not suppose 2 use e computer for fun but who cares.......
love to break skool rules.......
no poems tdy guys.....
i know u love my poems......
HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so ego.......
juz kiddin.....
no mood 4 poems tdy......
GUMgum
Labels: I AM NOT YOUNG ENOUGH TO KNOW EVERYTHING
anger management
4/06/2007 09:16:00 AM
i'm fucking irritated with my frens......
their promised are a lie......
i will never wanna believed them anymore......
why am i FUCKING EMOTIONAL????!!!!!!
watever it is.....
this day is e worst day of my life.....
ppl are not free......
my fren got scolded......
n
i layered my hair tat it is too short 4 me to tie it.....
ARGHH.........
I'M FUCKING FRUSTRATED...........
Labels: PATRIOTISM IS THE VIRTUE OF THE VICIOUS
sentimental me
4/06/2007 09:11:00 AM
felt bored....n....wrote poem...nothin else to do...take pics too..:) CAMWHORE here it goes.... setiap hari aku menghitung untuk menatap wajahmu setiap hari juga aku berasa kosong di hati yang suci ini aku menuggu di situ untuk menumui mu malangnya kahadiran yang aku tunggu tidak tiba jua aku bertanya hatiku kalau ini adalah satu takdir takdir untuk tidak bersama kasihku takdir untuk menyakiti hati aku ni takdir untuk ditinggalkan apapun jua takdir yang ditentukan aku akan menerima dengan hati terbuka the end so people who wants to know wat this poem means.....ask ur malay friends...i'm sure they knows it..... ENJOY YOUR WEEEKENDS!!!!!!!!
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lost
4/06/2007 09:06:00 AM
have u ever wonder if there's something missing in ur heart.....
thinking tat everything in ur life went perfectly....
wen its actually not.....
suddenly a stranger came......
its the piece tat is always missing.....
this is not what happen to me actually.......
juz a feeling that was always trapped inside........
finally i have let it out.....
felt my life was juz a lie.....
waiting for someone tat don even knows i exist......
messsage:please tell ur true feelings to this person......don wait forever.....its painful to wait.......u may not know if the person likes u too.....
the answer mayb yes or no......juz receive it honestly although it hurts.......
Labels: GENIUS IS BORN--NOT PAID, I AM NOT YOUNG ENOUGH TO KNOW EVERYTHING
SHIQIN AKA GUMgumFOURTEEN